11.24.2008

W.T.H.I.T.W.


What The Heck In The World?!!

It’s hard to believe that not working for one month has become detrimental to my mental/emotional state. I thought I’d be able to jump back into the swing of things with ease…..WO baby was I WA rong! Remember when you started your first “real job”… the excitement, the anticipation,…and then out of no where you get hit by a Mac truck, and you have an “AH HA” moment where you realize that you will be working everyday forever and ever?? You begin contemplating suicide when you realize you don’t have a choice....work is what you do...and you are now a slave to the man?
Remember that?........ I do. I remember it like it was yesterday…or maybe even today..…Pit in my stomach, compulsive thoughts about sleep…loss of freedom. Looks like I have to be responsible again.
BOOOOOOOOOO YAAAAAHHH (someone just yelled that in my ear) and it hurt.

Dear Responsibility:
I hate you. You stink. Please leave me alone.
P.S..…I hate your guts

6 comments:

Craig Family said...

One of my favorite things about you is your brutal honesty. Often you say the things I scream inside my head and wish I had the guts to tell the world. But then, I've always wished I could be like you in many, many ways.
I am so sorry you feel that way about your job. I remember those feelings. They do feel like handcuffs that have no key. When the hate becomes real enough, you decide you will never work for the "Man", again. And you start your own company. Then you have a whole new set of handcuffs you deal with everyday. But at least you made the choice to be the "Man" and not be at an other man's beckon call. It is an indescribable feeling of freedom. Only, with that freedom comes no regular paycheck. Sometimes months without a paycheck. AGHHH!

The Hodsons said...

Natalie, you're funny! I too hate the idea of "work". I wish that we could be little again and have summer's off, and that our biggest worry was whether or not to go swimming or bowling. Blah responsiblity!...But I guess being older has its perks too.

Jacqueline and Jared Miller said...

Hahah oh man do I feel your pain! I love this post. Its like you spoke my feelings for me! Don't worry though, it doesn't get better. haha jk

Erin said...
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Erin said...

I have no idea what you are talking about!?? Weird.

The Browns said...

Oh nat I feel for you. But if you find a piece of natalie that was her freedom pick it up and give it back to her while she doesen't sleep. Sorry girl if you need to go to lunch for fun anytime call me. Oh and Parkcity I am working on. I will call you soon I promise. tata